"Pardon me as I burst into flames....." The quote of the month. Hmmmm......I've changed. I see it too. When did I become more like her? When did I stop trying to understand things from all points of view? Now, I just listen to others and just go with it. I dislike it. I hate myself for it. Also....Why do people who assume they don't do that hella do? Sure there's a small part of me that tells me what i'm doing but.......I don't listen. Well.......until now. It's a new year, a new beginning, and a new way of looking at things. Maybe one day i'll spontaneously combust. *random* Yes I know...Anyway, not really but sometimes I feel that way. In a sense it's not that i'd just randomly burn alive, it's just I think I have alot of anger issues bottled all up since I was little. So it means that I feel like I might crack under pressure at anytime...... By the way another issue. When did everyone start getting mean and rude? What happened to doing things because......you loved the person? What the hell is wrong with people wanting to hug others? If you push away that simple hug it could mean alot to someone who took a while to open up all the way. Maybe that person can only really hug their friends and they use that to compensate for a non-existing family. I had a another realization as well.....Words fucking hurt more then stones, or bombs, or any other physically painful thing in the world. Well, i've always known that, but it never really hit me till I looked at all the stuff i've said and all the stuff that was said to me. I think i'm gonna go back to thinking about what I say, then just saying things because it would be funny. Fuck being "funny" if it envolves someone getting really hurt. Most people end up hiding all the pain. Could you imagine what kind of damage you would be doing in the long run? Oh, here's a truth......People NEVER forget the hurtful things you say to them. Sure, they might seem like the type that may brush it off but remember.....They will never forget what a "friend" told them. So in short, i'm sorry to anyone that I may have caused any sadness to. I really mean it. Don't misunderstand me either. I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIENDS. I, myself, just get angry just like anyone else. Tell, me if i'm not understanding something right. Tell me if somethings wrong, cause if you don't how will I really know how to fix it? And.....in the end i'll try doing the same for any of you that would like me too, if you'd let me. Cause.....isn't life about bettering yourself? | 
